I entered the Catholic church during the Easter Vigil on April 23, 1992, the same day as the con-validation of our civil marriage. Yes, we got married at the JP so I could get my green card, but that’s a story for another day.
So, why, at the end of 2022, do I have this mighty desire to “come out Catholic?” Didn’t the whole congregation witness my profession of faith? Wasn’t that enough? The difference is, although I meant my profession of faith the first time, I professed more with my mouth and less with my heart.
It has taken me 30 years of wrestling, of metanoia in action, to have this deep desire to proclaim publicly, “…that Jesus is Lord,” and I “believe in [my] heart that God raised Him from the dead…For with the heart one believes and is justified, and with the mouth one confesses and is saved” (Romans 10:9-10).
Over the years, I barely scratched the surface of the vast treasures of Scripture and Tradition as I raised my family, served in my parish and pursued a teaching career. Don’t get me wrong, I was never ashamed to say that I was Catholic in secular circles. My friends and colleagues knew, but I was elective in how I lived out my faith. It’s just not enough to simply be a “practicing Catholic in good standing” anymore.
Now, in middle age, as I pursue a new career in coaching, I’ve landed in the Metanoia Catholic, a community of seekers of Truth, Beauty and Goodness. Coming out Catholic all of a sudden takes on a different meaning as I watch Matt and Erin Ingold so boldly demonstrate their faith. I see them do what I so desperately want for myself, to be unabashedly Catholic in a world that is turning more and more against the faith. I am inspired and will be equipped to BE a Catholic Coach. God is good.
I received this poem in Adoration on August 8, 2022 on my year-long journey of discernment.
Coming Out Catholic
I’m coming out Catholic What’s that, you ask? I’m telling the world Not hiding in the dark. No shame in telling My precious faith story How Jesus had saved me In all of His glory. Finding my fire Shouting from the spire Dispelling the lies In front of my eyes Surrendering, trusting Receiving the grace Adoring Him now His Eucharistic Face. I’m coming out Catholic I’m running the race In trustful surrender, I’m taking my place.
Christ is calling me into a closer relationship with Him so that I can serve others in His name. He is not calling me to serve as a MindsetCoach for Catholics, but to serve as a Catholic Mindset Coach in an ever more secularized society because, “The harvest is great, but the laborers are few” (Matthew 9: 27). I want to serve, not because my prospective clients are Catholic, but because I am. I believe I am here in the Metanoia Catholic Academy and Catholic Coaching Foundations not by chance, but because He has called me here to equip me to serve Him in a greater capacity as I receive the training and grow alongside the community of believers. It’s a beautiful thing.
So, to sum up in poetry my journey thus far I:
Unfurl the Truth Like a banner across my heart Letters in scarlet There from the start Broken and beaten To Jesus a path His love is greater than this worldly treasure A healing balm A wondrous salve Freedom from grasping For temporal pleasures I’m coming out Catholic The journey begins To bring God the glory He knows how it ends.
About the Author
About the Author
Dr. Carron Silva is a Catholic Wholeness Coach and Retreat Presenter. She helps women who have experienced complex trauma interrogate negative thoughts and false beliefs they hold about themselves and create new, honest, and authentic perspectives that serve them well.
A South African native, Carron’s rich cultural, educational and historical context lays the foundation for someone who thrives in service to others. As a retreat presenter, she advocates for healing trauma through forgiveness using poetry, song, scripture and the Catechism of the Catholic Church.
Carron is an empty nester, entrepreneur, mom to adult children, and wife of 30+ years to Steve. She is the author of With You Always: A Journey with Jesus, a Christian Daily Devotional Memoir detailing her journey of faith and healing from trauma through scripture, stories, poetry and images.
She loves the outdoors, growing and preserving food, and being with people.
Professional accomplishments include Certified Woman School Strategist, Homeless After School Program Founder and Family Advocate, Veteran English Teacher and Cognitive Coach, Teacher Mentor, Licensed K-12 Principal, Outward Bound Graduate, Urban Farmer, and Ph.D. in Education and Human Resources Studies. She is the Executive Director of Mandorla Coaching LLC, striving to equip women to live integrated lives.
You can learn more about Carron at her website www.drcarron.com For Wholeness Coaching, Public Speaking and Retreat Opportunities, contact Carron at firstname.lastname@example.org
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